Perfect in my Mind

Perfect in my Mind

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Baby, baby.

When I was in the second grade, I thought I was awesome.  I remember sitting in music class, singing my little heart out.  I have always been a loud singer, but I remember singing particularly loud during this occasion.  After my class finished singing, the girl I had been sitting by nudged my shoulder and said, "You sing ugly."  But I knew what she really meant to say was, "You have a really pretty singing voice."
 Sometimes I wonder what happened to that undaunted little girl.  The girl who turned negatives into positives, and believed every person she met was kind.  Some days I think I hear her whispering  sentiments of confidence and optimism--but other days the whispering is simply non-existent.  Some days I recognize my strengths  and other days all I can see are my weaknesses.

It's easy to spot happiness when watching a child play.  Things are so simple in a child's world.  Worry and sorrow are fleeting moments.  Perhaps I could stand to let myself be a little more childlike.  Maybe I would be a happier person, in general.

So, here's to being more nugget like.  I feel better about myself, already.

P.S.  Thanks mom, for getting me braces and letting me straighten my hair.

17 comments:

Brooklyn McKenna said...

HAHA Sometimes I wonder what I ever did without my flat iron and when i look at my 5th grade pictures I remember... and cringe. Yuck. haha. Inspiring post. I loved it.

Alexis Kaye said...

you are wonderful! It's so true. I have serious issues with this. Actually, funny you should bring this up because I talked to my therapist about it today. It's hard to figure out who we are with so much feedback coming in from the outside. She said the best place to get feedback on who you are is from Heavenly Father. I think it's so true. And I plan on asking him tonight :)

Laura Darling said...

Hah I know exactly what you mean! I personally think I have a FANTASTIC singing voice (haha!) but not many people agree. The other day I was in an elevator with my little sister and since the acoustics are just great in an elevator, I started to sing. She says, "Well, you don't sound TERRIBLE in here!" How rude! Haha!

Autumn said...

I love this. I was actually thinking about this the other day how I was so carefree as a child and naturally trusted in my ability to learn and do things.

I think that is part of the reason why we all end up eventually having kids- so we can remind ourselves a little bit about that part of life we forget in grown up stress.

Cindy said...

What a good idea to want to be more child-like again, Chels! Things were simpler then...and it's hard to properly see yourself without that kind of optimism we had when we were younger. Not naivety, but some hope and understanding of our strengths and weaknesses at the same time.

It's a difficult balance.

I hope you know you're an awesome nugget! :) <3

LaynahRose said...

The world would be an infinitely better place if everyone was more childlike. They are my favorite people to be around for so many reasons.

James said...

Hah, if only that little brat could here you sing now. And that picture should give hope to anyone out there.

P! said...

Seriously cute. I was that kid too at times. "...the girl I had been sitting by nudged my shoulder and said, 'You sing ugly.' But I knew what she really meant to say was, 'You have a really pretty singing voice.'" The funniest thing I have heard all week!! Hahaha!

Courtney B said...

DIDO to all of this!! Seriously! Life was so much easier and care free as a child! Why was I in such a hurry to grow up?!
I am so with you...here's to being more childlike :)

p.s. Let's meet! Seriously, I'd LOVE that!

rebecca said...

pretty sure my elementary school photos look just like this..... every year. puffy hair and bangs. awesome.

Kaycie said...

How cute were you?! And that's a great attitude to have. Girrrrl. Can I have yo button? Haha I wanna snag it for my bloggy!

Dana Richards said...

What a doozy of an outfit hahaha gotta love the 90's

When I was at my parents this weekend I scanned a huge amount of old photos of myself... you can look forward to laughing right back at me :)

Silver Strands said...

What a sweet, sweet post! Something we all need to remember! BTW - I'm following now :)

Courtney Ash said...

This post is absolutely perfect in every way, just like you! I've actually had a rough day and reading this put a complete smile on my face. So thank you!~ My worries need to become fleeting moments as you said...starting NOW! Awesome. Have a great week- xoxo

hopelds said...

I absolutely adore that we spend almost all of our lives trying to recapture that innocence and sweetness of youth. As well as letting go of the hateful catty comments that get stuck in our self-esteem.

You go, girl.

Popcorn, Pugs & Peonies said...

Awww, that was kind of a cute story. I know hat you mean, about losing that innocence and carefreeness.

*Erin

MellyB said...

I'm sure that's exactly what she meant to say. Maybe girl had wax in her ears and couldn't really hear you at all. Maybe she was just guessing what you sounded like. Maybe she's like my child and had her adjectives all backwards.

Probably that last one! I'm sure you sounded perfect!